Sissyphus

I would have a kid just to grow something beautiful and leave it behind. Poor guy. I just never do enough. I never get there. Lately I've been thinking that I don't write the way that I want to and in my mind it's so easy to just decide to do the things you want to do. It's frustrating me so much that I just can't seem to do this. Sisyphus but I never got the punishment; I could never even do the crime. I don’t feel like I have the ability to get better at things. I’m either really good when I start or I never will be. And I will dedicate hours and hours and days and months to something I want to be good at but from start to finish, there is no change. I am what I am. I can do more, I can do everything. But I’ll never feel like anything has been done by me. I’m a little tired of working. I’m gonna dedicate more time to drinking green tea and posting on instagram.